The holidays are an unusual time. It is supposed to be a time of good cheer and hope and happiness. Yet, we stress over our families and our friends; our jobs; our money or lack thereof; buying gifts; decorating; etc. etc. etc.
Bryan will be home for the first Christmas in a long time. It was actually on Christmas Day, 2008, when my brother staged an intervention after Bryan stole from him; my husband got really angry and went to his mom and dad's for Christmas, and in a huge rain storm, I drove Bryan to BMC to detox. It was not the beginning of the journey; it was just an exit off the road of life.
Last year, when we still couldn't get together for Christmas, and he was ready to quit Narconon, he made such a fuss about missing the family and missing Christmas. So of course, this year I am excited that he is home and 2-years clean, working and doing well. That being said, he seems totally "uninterested" in the fact that Christmas is almost here. And it bothers me!
I know it is a minor thing to be concerned about. There are so many families and individuals that have so many major worries about the holidays (heck about life in general, and not just the holidays). But I admit that I was looking forward to a nice family Christmas with my son and I'm finding myself upset with him for not taking it seriously. So again, I am giving over my power of being healthy and happy in life to someone else (my son) and I need to make sure that I hold on to my power and manage my life myself.
Although I haven't been visiting the blogosphere a lot, everyone remains in my prayers.
Hope you have a fantastic Christmas!
ReplyDeleteHi Sweet Lisa,
ReplyDeleteYou have to remember, B is a guy and it seems that a majority of guys are not as excited (on the outside) about Christmas. I bet he will be more enthused as the day draws closer. Focus on the fact that he's alive, doing well and has 2 years clean!!!! That is the best gift an addict can give to their family :)